Life

why does the one guy that i love doesnt sound like he does love me? I hate it. he pisses me off that he does that. why cant i find that one guy that loves me! Gosh i just want to kill me self now cause i dont have anyone to love me!!! I realy want to kill myself so much now cause of this. The one thing that makes me happy is that i am talking to the first guy that i ever loved. His name is John. we meet when i was 5 and i feel deep in love with him just like i did with this new guy. John was sweet and kind. we were going to get married but i had to move. i havent seen him in about 7 years! Man my life is Fucked up bad!!!

XOXO
MandaBurr