9/20/11

Me and my ex are talking again!! he makes me soooo happy!!! He said that we will try dating long descents. so i am hopping. we talk alot if you know what i mean;) lol i love him t death and he loves me too i know he does!!! XOXO MandaBurr

Life 2010- NOW

I guess my life was crap and then it was good but i dont know yet. I dont know if i should trust what this guy said to me or listen to my friends he has told me alot of story and then he went back on them. I cant make up my mine I need help!!!


XOXO
MandaBurr

Can't stand this!! May 6, 2010

Ugh I hate that this one guy that I like is gay!!!
This always happen to me!!!! Ugh fuck my life!!
And plus I like my best guy friend which the
gay guy that I like likes him!!!!! Ugh fuck my life again!!!
It pisses me off that I only like the gay guys!
Ugh!!! I wish I can die right now cause of this!!
Well I am going to head to bed and have a horrible dream
about how I can't get a guy!!!


Love
MandaBurr!

Everything is back into normal!

So yeah I am not dating anyone now but I do like this one guy he is really cute but my best friends like him.
I like him alot I don't know what to do!!!
Ugh!! Shoot me now!!!!!!
Why dose this happen to me all the time!!

New!!

Okay i am dating this one guy that i have had this huge crush on and now that we are dating i just dont like him anymore but yet he tells my best friend that he loves him alot and i just dont know what to do!!!UHHHH!!!!! i hate this shit so much!!!! I need help and i have asked all my best friends what i should do and they all tell me the same thing!!! UHHHHH!!!

SHOOT ME!!!!

MandaBurr!

Today: January 31, 2010

I wake up today from the worst dream ever!!!
It started off with me working at the theatre booth
for our fundraiser that we are doing. So this one girl
that I know and hate comes up to me and says that
Nick isn't in love with any more and is in love with her.
So I said that can't be we love each other alot and she
goes no he is just saying that. Well I started fo cry I grab
my things and run into the bathroom intil lunch is over.
I walk into my 3rd block class and my teacher takes me
out in to the hall and ask me what is wrong and I say nothing.
So the class went on and then came 4th block and as had after
school practice with the girl that told me this. Daniel who is a good
friend give me the biggest hug and said if was going fo be alright.
He said that TJ told every body in 4th bolck about what happened.
At first i was mad and I then thought they were my family and I love
them. But that still didn't help me at all. I was still crying cause I couldn't
believe what she said to me.
I then woke up crying.
This is one of the worst dreams I ever had.

Life

why does the one guy that i love doesnt sound like he does love me? I hate it. he pisses me off that he does that. why cant i find that one guy that loves me! Gosh i just want to kill me self now cause i dont have anyone to love me!!! I realy want to kill myself so much now cause of this. The one thing that makes me happy is that i am talking to the first guy that i ever loved. His name is John. we meet when i was 5 and i feel deep in love with him just like i did with this new guy. John was sweet and kind. we were going to get married but i had to move. i havent seen him in about 7 years! Man my life is Fucked up bad!!!

XOXO
MandaBurr